Miles of Smiles

:)

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I don’t like what I’ve done and am doing here.  Time to start fresh.

many many things

it is what we do today that matters most. 

I’m having a little trouble with that one.  Can’t stop thinking thinking thinking.  I have to get on it and do.  Okay.  I’m omw. 

tripping on rocks

tripping on shit

tripping

The story that I have isn’t as important as the creation of art, and maybe you will be able to pick it out of the rubble that ensues.

I’m on shrooms!!!!

I really am, but that’s what my brother and kyle and hunter and the people that I know say because of that song that you might know.  It’s so awesome that no one might ever read this…  or appreciate it, don’t you think?  Recently I realized that nothing matters!!!!! and it bothered me, but it doesn’t bother me anymore because of something that rosella said.  and maybe it could help you too.  If there is a you. Her concept was this: 

If nothing matters.  If you truly believe that nothing matters…. THEN YOU CAN DO WHATEVER YOU WANT.   Now I understand that you might be thinking “duh”……  Ok, I get it.  sometimes i lose focus of what I want to say, but all I have to do is look back and read what happens.  This is so awesome.  I’m glad that I found tumblr because I’m in a situation where I’m shroomed the fuck up but I have to stay normal-looking.  You know what I’m sayin??  Anyway. 

oh.  I pretty much said what I wanted to say anyway.  :)  I’m going to do whatever I want now though, you know.  I’m going to do whatever I feel like doing and it’s awesome.  Like right now… wow. wow.  I just came to two discoveries, but putting them into words would be too much work. Why should I try to record it anyway?? The ironic thing is that that was one of the two discoveries.  ugh.  I’m so hypocritical.

I’m going to Indonesia, dude. 

I’m going to Indonesia and backpacking to the straight or whatever they call the water that separates Indonesia and Malaysia/Thailand or whatever whatever whatever. That’s where I’ll find a plane or a boat or something and go to Thailand. 

That’s a good reason to use Tumblr, I guess….. I’ll use tumblr to…. wow….

Things are making very little sense to me right now.  But perfect sense at the same time.  It’s so weird.  Minds are so weird. 

For example…

I forget. oh.  who cares?  who cares?  who cares? 

Nothing matters at all.  Nothing does.

I hate when I just write things that don’t make sense and then when I actually care and look back it’s just useless.  oh.  what??  what was that right there?? 

After I backpack through Indonesia and Thailand and meet people and experience places I’m going to go to South America. 

It feels so good to actually be able to say that.  You don’t understand.  Where I am in life.  I know.  Who doesn’t understand?  Whoever’s taking their silly time to read this. 

WOO! 

I live in the world.  woah. 

I live in the world. I live in the world.  I live in the world.  Everyone does.  I’m going to enjoy it. 

I am having so much fun. 

I just want to learn.  I want to know.  I want to actually KNOW.  I’m just going to live because it’s the only way.  I don’t want to be a zombie.  I want to do whatever I want and enjoy myself.  That’s my life.  That’s who I am.  Who can actually say that?  Not many people, I think.  Not many.  I am going to live and do whatever I want to do.  Right now I’m shroomed the fuck up and I want to write. 

Why wouldn’t life have meaning if I didn’t have a job or if I ….  There are so many standards that everyone puts on everyone else.

What am I doing?

I am so confused. 

Just chill. 

Okay. 

:)

Just be happy. 

Okay. 

:)

There are no expectations, just what you have for yourself.  It’s just you and everyone out there.  What do you want to do for the world?  I like making people happy.  I want to make as many people happy as I can.  I don’t need to make a mark on the world because everything is going to …. that is so sad. 

Another thing.  We’re all so alone.

Just live. 

nothing makes sense, but just live.

Just live.  I love everyone because we exist and I’m a part of the human race.  I love everyone.  I love everyone. 

I am myself.  I am unique.  Everyone is unique. 

These things are all true. 

These are just truths. 

I am just living and everyone is just living.  Why do I want to make a mark on the world? or change anyone?

I don’t know. 

Why am I typing

I don’t understand!!!!!!!!!! anything that I’m trying to understand!!!!!!!!!!! I guess I just need to learn. 

I need to learn and experience so that I can add to the collected knowledge of the world.  Because that’s all that we have right here in front of us.  We have humans.  And I love them.  What is the meaning of life?  Everyone faces this question. Everyone.  I know you’re judging me, but I’m actually lo

Jeez. 

What the fuck am I trying to do here?

I am Napela.  I am Napela.  I am Napela Ata`ofa`amanuiaga Naea and I am the only Napela that the whole universe will ever experience and I want everyone to care about me the way I care about them. 

Everyone want to be cared about. 

That’s so selfish. 

Selfish.  This year is

It’s all so silly.

I like that… This is what Napela does. 

And that people just have to deal with it because I’m dealing with them.  hehe.  <3

That’s all now.  I should end this.

What crazy turns.  I don’t even know what’s going on, but I’m having fun.